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My Best Christmas
Pa never had much
compassion for the lazy or those who
squandered their means
and then never had enough for the
necessities. But for
those who were genuinely in need, his
heart was as big as all
outdoors. It was from him that I learned
the greatest joy in life
comes from giving, not from receiving.
It was Christmas Eve,
1881. I was fifteen years old and feeling
like the world had caved
in on me because there just hadn't
been enough money to buy
me the rifle that I had wanted for
Christmas. We did the
chores early that night for some reason.
I just figured Pa wanted
a little extra time so we could read in
the Bible.
After supper was over I
took my boots off and stretched out
in front of the fireplace
and waited for Pa to get down the old
Bible. I was still
feeling sorry for myself and, to be honest I
wasn't in much of a mood
to read Scriptures. But Pa didn't
get the Bible, instead he
bundled up again and went outside.
I couldn't figure it out
because we had already done all the
chores. I didn't worry
about it long though, I was too busy
wallowing in self-pity.
Soon Pa came back in. It
was a cold clear night out and there
was ice in his beard.
"Come on, Matt," he said. "Bundle up good,
it's cold out tonight." I
was really upset then. Not only wasn't
I getting the rifle for
Christmas, now Pa was dragging me out
in the cold, and for no
earthly reason that I could see. We'd
already done all the
chores and I couldn't think of anything else
that needed doing,
especially not on a night like this.
But I knew Pa was not
very patient at one dragging one's feet
when he'd told them to do
something, so I got up and put my
boots back on and got my
cap, coat and mittens. Ma gave me
a mysterious smile as I
opened the door to leave the house.
Something was up, but Ii
didn't know what.
Outside I became even
more dismayed. There in front of
the house was the work
team, already hitched to the big sled.
Whatever it was we were
going to do wasn't going to be a
short, quick little job.
I could tell. We never hitched up this
sled unless we were going
to haul a big load.
Pa was already on the
seat, reins in hand. I reluctantly
climbed up beside him.
The cold was already biting at me.
I wasn't happy. When I
was on, Pa pulled the sled around
the house and stopped in
front of the woodshed. He got off
and I followed. "I think
we'll put on the high sideboards, "
he said. "Here, help me."
The high sideboards! It had been a
bigger job than I wanted
to do with just the low sideboards
on, but whatever it was
we were going to do would be a lot
bigger with the
sideboards on.
After we had exchanged
the sideboards, Pa went into the
woodshed and came out
with an armload of wood--the wood
I'd spent all Summer
hauling down from the mountain, and
then all Fall sawing into
blocks and splitting. What was he
doing? Finally I said
something. "Pa," I asked, "What are
you doing?" "You been by
the Widow Jensen's lately?"
he asked. The Widow
Jensen lived about two miles down
the road. Her husband had
died a year or so before and left
her with three children,
the oldest being eight. Sure, I'd been
by, but so what? "Yeah,"
I said, "Why?" "I rode by just
today," Pa said. "Little
Jakey was out digging around in
the woodpile trying to
find a few chips. They're out of wood,
Matt."
That was all he said and
then he turned and went back
into the woodshed for
another armload of wood. I followed
him. We loaded the sled
so high that I begin to wonder if
the horses would be able
to pull it. Finally, Pa called a halt
to our loading, then we
went to the smoke house and Pa
took down a big ham and a
side of bacon. He handed them
to me and told me to put
them in the sled and wait.
When he returned he was
carrying a sack of flour over his
right shoulder and a
smaller sack of something in his left
hand. "What's in the
little sack?" I asked. "Shoes. They're
out of shoes. Little
Jakey just had gunny sacks wrapped
around his feet when he
was out in the woodpile this
morning. I got the
children a little candy too. It wouldn't
be Christmas without a
little candy."
We rode the two miles to
Widow Jensen's pretty much
in silence. I tried to
think through what Pa was doing. We
didn't have much by
worldly standards. Of course, we did
have a big woodpile,
though most of what was left was still
in the form of logs that
I would have to saw into blocks and
split before we could use
it. We also had meat and flour, so
we could spare that, but
I knew we didn't have any money,
so why was Pa buying them
shoes and candy?
Really, why was he doing
any of this? Widow Jensen had
closer neighbors than us;
it shouldn't have been our
concern. We came in from
the blind side of the Jensen
house and unloaded the
wood as quietly as possible, then
we took the meat and
flour and shoes to the door. We
knocked. The door opened
a crack and a timid voice said,
"Who is it?" Lucas
Miles, Ma'am, and my son, Matt.
Could we come in for a
bit?"
Widow Jensen opened the
door and let us in. She had a
blanket wrapped around
her shoulders. The children were
wrapped in another and
were sitting in front of the fireplace
by a very small fire that
hardly gave off any heat at all.
Widow Jensen fumbled with
a match and finally lit the lamp.
"We brought you a few
things, Ma'am," Pa said and sit down
the sack of flour. I put
the meat on the table. Then Pa
handed her the sack that
had the shoes in it.
She opened it
hesitantly and took the shoes out one pair
at a time. There was a
pair for her and one for each of the
children---sturdy shoes,
the best , shoes that would last. I
watched her carefully.
She bit her lower lip to keep it from
trembling and then tears
filled her eyes and started running
down her cheeks. She
looked up at Pa like she wanted to
say something, but it
wouldn't come out.
"We brought you a load of
wood too, Ma'am," Pa said. He
turned to me and said,
"Matt, go bring in enough to last
awhile. Let's get that
fire up to size and heat this place up."
I wasn't the same person
when I went back out to bring in
the wood. I had a big
lump in my throat and as much as I
hate to admit it , there
were tears in my eyes too.
In my mind I kept seeing
those three kids huddled
around the fireplace and
their mother standing there and
tears running down her
cheeks with so much gratitude
in her heart that she
couldn't speak. My heart swelled
within me and a joy that
I'd never known before, filled my
soul. I had given at
Christmas many times before, but
never when it had made so
much difference. I could see
we were literally saving
the lives of these people.
I soon had the fire
blazing and everyone's spirits soared.
The kids started giggling
when Pa handed them each a
piece of candy and Widow
Jensen looked on with a smile
that probable hadn't
crossed her face for a long time. She
finally turned to us.
"God bless you," she said. "I know the
Lord has sent you. The
children and I have been praying
that He would send one of
his angels to spare us."
In spite of myself, the
lump returned to my throat and
the tears welled up in my
eyes again. I'd never thought
of Pa in those exact
terms before, but after Widow Jensen
mentioned it I could see
that it was probably true. I was
sure that a better man
than Pa had never walked the
earth. I started
remembering all the times he had gone
out of his way for Ma and
me, and many others. The
list seemed endless as I
thought on it.
Pa insisted that everyone
try on the shoes before we
left. I was amazed when
they all fit and I wondered
how he had known what
sizes to get. Then I guessed that
if he was on an errand
for the Lord that the Lord would
make sure he got the
right sizes.
Tears were running down
Widow Jensen's face again
when we stood up to
leave. Pa took each of the kids in
his big arms and gave
them a hug. They clung to him and
didn't want us to go. I
could see that they missed their Pa,
and I was glad that I
still had mine.
At the door Pa turned to
Widow Jensen and said,
"The Mrs. wanted me to
invite you and the children over
for Christmas dinner
tomorrow. The turkey will be
more than the three of
us can eat, and a man can get
cantankerous if he has to
eat turkey for too many meals.
We'll be by to get you
about eleven. It'll be nice to have
some little ones around
again. Matt, here, hasn't been
little for quite a
spell." I was the youngest. My two
brothers and two sisters
had all married and had moved
away. Widow Jensen nodded
and said, "Thank you,
Brother Miles. I don't
have to say, "May the Lord bless
you,' I know for certain
that He will."
Out on the sled I felt
a warmth that came from deep
within and I didn't even
notice the cold. When we had
gone a ways, Pa turned to
me and said, "Matt, I want
you to know
something. Your Ma and me have been
tucking a little money
away here and there all year
so we could buy that
rifle for you, but we didn't have
quite enough.
Then yesterday a man who
owed me a little money from
years back came by to
make things square. Your Ma and
me were real excited,
thinking that now we could buy you
that rifle, so I started
into town this morning to do just that.
But on the way I saw
little Jakey out scratching in the
woodpile with his feet
wrapped in those gunny sacks and
I knew what I had to do.
Son, I spent the money for
shoes and a little candy
for those children. I hope you
understand."
I understood and my eyes
become wet with tears
again. I understood very
well, and I was so glad Pa had
done I. Now the rifle
seemed very low on my list of
priorities. Pa had given
me a lot more. He had given me
the look on Widow
Jensen's face and the radiant smiles
of her three children.
For the rest of my life,
whenever I saw any of the
Jensens or split a block
of wood, I remembered and
remembering brought back
the same joy I felt riding
home beside Pa that
night. Pa had given me much more
than a rifle that night,
he had given me the best
Christmas of my life.
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