My name is Allen.
Today is a sad day in my life. Some of you
may know me
personally and some only on AOL and some may
have never even spoken to me.
What only some of you may know is that I
had a girlfriend that was killed.
I am sending this out to tell you all a
simple and true
message. I never was
big on girls, being a simple country boy from
Tennessee. I never thought I
stood a chance with a nice girl like all
guys dream about. I
dated girls here and there but nothing major.
Then my senior year of
high school, I saw her. Her name was
She was a model and to
beat it all she was Italian. The first
day she was there she walked up and
looked at me in lunch and said, "Excuse
me Mr. Allen, could I sit with the
senior class president?"
I looked at her and said, "Well that's me,
sit if you would
like." From that day
on we were never apart. I was one of the popular
people but not one of
the sports jocks and I
still don't know why. I was studying to be
a photographer when she took me on a
model shoot with her and a runway show.
I was just amazed at her. We had then
decided I would be her photographer.
She even got me into modeling. We were
together about everyday then on May
8, 1999 it happened. She called and woke
me up at 6 am like she always did
and said I'll see you at school. I had
known her for only 4 months. I got to
school and she never showed up.
At 10 am as I was walking to the office to
call her, the principal came over
the inter-com and gave this
"Students and Faculty: It is my sad duty to
tell you that Alena Mazzoni was
killed in a head on collision this
morning on the way to school."
I dropped to my knees there in the hall and
cried. I left school. I came
home and only to find my mom and dad
waiting on me. My mom was crying
because she knew how I felt for her. I
found out that my dad saw the
and was the first on the scene. A girl
crossed 3 lanes of traffic
and hit Alena head on.
Alena's Geo Tracker rolled over down an
embankment and rested on it's tires
again. My dad found her with the engine
in her lap. She was flown to the
University of Tennessee hospital where
she was pronounced dead on arrival.
The other girl that hit her was stoned and
drunk. I felt it was my fault
because I talked her into staying at G-P
High School in Gatlinburg. She
lived in Sevierville next to the Sevier
Co High and she wanted to move back.
I begged for her to stay. If I didn't,
she would still be here today.
So what's the message behind this you ask? I
never told Alena I loved her
nor did she me. We were so happy it was
like we already knew. When I went to
the funeral home her mom met me at the
door and asked if I would be a pall-bearer for
her and if I would sing Amazing
Grace for her. I said I would.
The funeral home was closing the doors and
her mom said she had to go but
handed me a piece of paper that had a
spot of blood on it. Everyone left but
since I knew the funeral director I asked
if I could stay. The note her
mom handed me said this:
My dearest Allen! I am just sitting here
in my room thinking of you and I
wanted to write. You have no idea how
happy I am with you. We have been
together for 4 months now and I couldn't
dream being with anyone
else. There is something I want to tell
you I think it is time for me to say:
Allen, I love you!
Well I am looking forward to seeing you
She wrote the note the night before she died.
We never had told each other
we love the other. I cried so hard. I put
the note next to her and the only
picture of the both of us together in
there and a white rose.
I sang at her funeral the next day and I
helped carry her to her final
resting place in Pigeon Forge, TN. I
thought my life ended at that moment
when they lowered her down. Today is her
20th Birthday! Still
to this day I think of her and I never wanted to
talk about it. It
feels better now that I got it out.
The point of this is:
IF THERE IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE, TELL THEM.
NO MATTER WHO THEY ARE.
If it is a guy or girl you love, tell them.
Tomorrow may be WAY too late.
I must move on now with my life but I will
always remember the
times we shared. When
I wake up in the morning and walk outside:
She smiles at me. I just know it. She
would want me to go on.
If you've ever been in love, then you
know how I feel. Please forward this
to ALL your friends by email or ICQ. I
appreciate that you could help me
share this simple and true message with
everyone. This is the last thing
that I can do for my forever Alena.......